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I'm just an ordinary girl who is used to be called as Gretta. The full name of Gretta is actually Margaretta Carolina. Does Carolina her surname or something like that? Hmmm... How can I explain this? This is kind a complicated story so better not to discuss it here. Hehehe. You may assume Carolina as my surname. :P

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ARTIS - THE ZOO part 2
Sunday, August 31, 2008 6:45 PM
Part 2 of the previous post.

YAPH We're off to the part 2 of my adventurous day in the zoo of amsterdam.
Well. There was also a building full of the "water living things". Yeah, full of the animals that live under the water. I took a look and there was almost nothing interested. Except two things, the first is these first two pictures. Lets have a look.
Aquarium that shows living things under the Amsterdam City 1
(parking cars on the edge of the river)

Aquarium that shows living things under the Amsterdam City 2
(broken bicycle and a seagull)

The second thing that was a quite-shocking thing was this. I didnt (and dont) even know this living thing was kind a FISH or a MAMAL. It DID have fins, but four legs too as well. And it DID have something like red horn on its head. This animal was so strange but hell it's alive. I took a picture of the "black edition" of this animal. lets have a look. :)
The STRANGE ANIMAL (white version)

We went around and found this unique bird. I thought this was a flaminggo. But i'm not sure bout it, since we gotta rushed to another direction. hehe... bye bye flamingoo!!
Flaminggo?


This following picture was actually taken "luckily". That was a Gouden Leeuwaapje in Dutch, and if we translate it into english it would be : Gold Lion monkey. Yeah. sure because IT WAS REALLY BLOND AND IT REALLY HAD GOLD GOLD GOLD HAIR!!! Unfortunately the golden monkey didnt look at us. :( and if you know dutch, it was called the Gouden Leeuwaap'JE'. the 'je' is an addition of a noun to show that that noun has a small size or something like that. And this monkey was so small and cute and, i just felt like i was seeing a monkey doll.The Golden Lion Monkey (het Gouden Leeuwaapje)

I only put things that i like or that are quite interesting on my blog. I'm an Indonesier and I had never seen the real Kangaroo!!! I could only see them on TV or in the book and I JUST CAN SEE THEM CLEARLY WITH MY EYES AND THEY LOOKED SO DAMN CUTE!!! I wished i could have cuddled them!!! Yeah... i wished. i wished. i wished. *one more animal missing in the artis is the koalas. they didnt have them* :'(
The SUPER CUTE Kangaroo!!! Wanna cuddle him!!!

OK. Now we went to the LAMA'S. I'd just heard from Claire that the Lamas love to SPIT! I just couldnt believe that!! whahahahahahaha.... Since i had heard it, i didnt want to get any closer to this mamal. OH MY GOODNESS, what should i do or what would happen if i got spit by this innocent-face Lama? Honestly, i love this animal. its shape is nice to be seen somehow... :d
A relaxing Lama

Yeaph. we went then to a part where we could cuddle or touch the animals. But, WHY DIDNT THEY JUST LET MORE ANIMALS TO BE CUDDLED besides those GOATS AND SHEEPS? ayayayaya... those goats i had SEEN SO MANY TIMES in Indonesia. Especially when it's almost the Idul Adha. The day of the moslems where they should have slaughtered some qurban (can be a cow, goat, or buffallo ~if im not mistaken sorry if i made some mistakes). And that time, i just feel like I'm HOME!! They smells like what they meant to be. And it takes me back to the past, SOMEHOW...
Touching the black goat.
(seumur hidup gw baru sekali megang kambing!! dan ternyata matanya kambing tuh serem abis!)

In the "kandang" where Jesus was born.

Okay, this following animalS are called "stekenvarken" in dutch (trans: stab pig / stabbing pig). PIG! How could this creature be a PIG? It's more like hedgehog! And this is my very first time seeing this hedgehog.
The headhogs

Just were playing around like childrens... haha
Gretta and Claire

All the skill of these kind of seadogs were performed their ability when they were fed. I should upload the video to my youtube.
SEADOGS PERFORMED!

This one stopped me breathing new air. Why are they so like-a-gorilla-costume?
Walking gorilla

One more time, the LAMA's

The last thing i really love!! The pinguins!! Claire told me a story of pinguins when i was taking their photos. She told me that IF a pinguin has found his or her partner, they would live their life together. Always together no matter what. What i knew was that the male pinguins are gonna take care of the eggs while the females should find the foods!! aarhhh.. what a nice story then i got this snapshot of the pinguins. What do you think after seeing this foto? Give me your answers by posting some comments!
Lovely Pinguins!!!

OK i'm dying and should make my fu**in collage. Gotta have some sleep for about 2 hours then i should start making that thing. ah!! should find some interesting pictures on the internet first!! geeezz.. ok then...

hope you enjoy my posts!!

welterusten iedereen...

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ARTIS - THE ZOO part 1
12:50 AM
So is that called. ARTIS. The Zoo.

I went there yesterday *YEAH YESTERDAY*. Yesterday was so great. Yeah, great for so-called refreshing and spend a vacation in Netherlands. I went there with Claire Ruzette, the girlfriend of my nephew, Arthur. Yesterday is just a girl day.

Claire and Gretta (C&G)

I did not realize that the entrance ticket would be soooo expensive! *especially for me* It was €17,10 for an adult. That was a quite nice ticket though with a cute map of the park too. We went into the zoo and saw some buffalo or bison or sth with a giga horn!!
The ticket, the map and the bison/buffalo.

In this zoo i've seen a lot of animals. *YEAH ITS A ZOO, PLEASEE* But not only the regular ones which i've seen in Taman Safari Indonesia (The zoo in Indonesia). SUCH AS THIS ONE! This "KAPOT-VET-GROOT" turltle! IT was almost 1 meter long and wide i think. You could see the difference between those three turtles and take a look at the lettuce before the giant turtle. can u imagine HOW BIG THE TURTLE IS?
The Turtles and a lettuce.Me and that giant Turtle (or another giant one)

It was soo crowded in the lion's cages. I just took one snapshot of the lions when they were walking to another side of the cage. I didnt recognize that they ARE SO SKINNY!! they dont get enough food or something else? Even the lions of the Taman Safari Indonesia GOT a lot of goats for their lunch! So pity... :'(
The skiny lions :'(
HEDWIGS!!! you know who they are. :)
The ELEPHANTS!!The gieren the vulture~ why are they called gieren by the Dutch people?The family of ours... hehe... :P


To be continued...

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mijn eerste hoorcollege.
Friday, August 29, 2008 5:51 PM
Today is a super crazy day. I feel like i'm dying. I am soooo tired!

#1 :
After writing my previous post, i went studying "Geschiedenis van de bouwkunst" or we could say it in english History of the Architecture Art. I thought that i wanted to sleep. I slept indeed, but for about 30 minutes i was awake, then decided to read the for-this-morning's-college material. 48 pages actually but i couldnt read that much in a couples hours and all of my books are written in DUTCH language.

#2 :
I had fallen to sleep at 6 o'clock. then FORTUNATELY Yasemin had called me, and she woke me up!!! i was so lucky (and also not) because she called me at 9.10, wether the college began at 9.20. At least i could still be there to have the super-important colleges. I got there for about 9.36 and i thought i didnt miss some important things.

I dont know why did i have a lot of 'energy' to have the collage today, but actually the case is i had just slept for about 3 hours!!

OK then the other college began at 11.15. This college talked about the material that i've read before! hoho... nice. i could even follow almost the whole time, except the part of Egypt-things. I had not finished reading that one. And the college was over and i had still to go home to take my digicam and went to Het Frederiksplein, a small greeny park in Amsterdam. We had our first project which is to build a house in that park. And the house is made for the artists, such as painter, dancer, actor&actress, writers, and so on. We should think about the environtment surround the house to espouse the work of the artists itself.

These are some of the snapshot i made :
A fountain of the Frederiksplein park.Gretta and two treesThe greeny way to greeny areasWe're gonna build the house here!Tried to xplain the location we chose.


After taking some photos we walked down the street and went to Van Beek to buy the 'inkt gum' then i went home.

So much walked, so much learned, so much talked, so much thought.
Now i'm going to SLEEP.. and this time is a real sleep.

Welterusten allemaal...
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DUA HARI LIBUR YANG MENYEBALKAN
Thursday, August 28, 2008 8:51 PM
Dua hari libur yang menyebalkan - De vervelende 2 vrije-dagen - The quite-annoying 2 free days.

Yaph. As we could see on the schedule, Class 1U and 1V have their 'free-school-days' on Wednesday and Thursday. BUT! Somehow, we couldnt 'savor' our two free days because of that docent who didnt came to our very first project class. *for the Indonesian speakers who has read the previous post must be understand what i am about to say*

INDEED. The story has just began.
Tuesday, 26 august 2008
On tuesday I and the other two students of class 1V were standing in front of the local C2.28, the local room where we were going to have a project class with the docent named Sander van Veen. We had been standing 10 minutes before the class began. It showed 8. 20 while the class should begin at 8.30.

Five and ten and till 15 minutes no one came to that local. It was already 9.15 when we realized that we should find where the docent was. We went to the docents room and asked the colleague of Mr. Sander van Veen and she didnt know it either where he was. Aiya aiyaaa... We came for nothing, it seemed.

We had asked the administration that arranged all of the schedule in the intranet of our school but they said that there was no changing. We had also checked the intranet and finaly decided to send the Mr. van Veen an email to tell him that "AT LEAST" we CAME and even EARLIER than we should have come.

Wednesday, 27 august 2008
Shit happened in this fu**in lazy day. I was reading my new-covered course-book when Wan King called my mobile. She informed me that there's a class of MR. SANDER VAN VEEN on the eleventh hour (it should begin at 18.10), and you know what time it was? It was 17.00 when Wan King called me!! Should i come or shouldnt i? I wanted to come to have some information (at least) about our project. This is very important for the HBO'ers. But yeah, you know.

My uncle was a lil bit mad at me because i told him such a sudden-changed-schedule. I DIDNT KNOW IT EITHER, OOM... How come i know why did the schedule was changed? I am just a newcomer at this school and yes, from the very begining the docents have said that we SHOULD every morning check the intranet, if there's a change in the schedule or if the docent is absent.

Yeah, and the answer was "No, you musnt go there".

Thursday 28 augustus 2008
For the XXXX times shit happened again! I was planning to go to school to make an assignment of analysis class with my friend, Yasemin Barun. But unfortunately she was sick and I think we could do that tomorrow, after class. BUT, circa at 1.30pm Yasemin called me that the schets class was moved from Friday to today at the nineth hour (should begin at 3.40pm).

I AM VERY BUGGED BY THIS PIECE OF SH*T! And i decided to phone my uncle at his office and tell the truth. He seemed angry and thought that everything was not well arranged. Then he told me to complain about this kinda thing, since i should have paid SO MUCH MONEY for this university.

Ok the story goes to the scene when i am arrived at school.

I arrived there at 3.15 and there's still time to have a chat with the classmate, Richardo and other friends, when suddenly when there's almost time for us to have the class, SOMEONE HAD TOLD US THAT the docent of the schets class was sick too. He couldnt give us a class.

*too much bad words here* --- sensored ---

We had nothing to do at school so we (Richardo, Wan King, Quirine, and I) decided to HAVE SOME MEAL, since my stomach is keroncongan because she was not being feed by me. hahaha...
We went to the burger king and i ordered the RED HOT CHILI WHOPPER menu.

I ate the french fries first (this one is a must for some reasons). When i opened the burger, i saw that it was not a WHOPPER. It was a chicken something. I complained to the cashier where i ordered the whopper and they simply gave me the whopper without asking me to pay more. (the chicken something menu is cheaper than the whopper menu that i just had had).

After an enjoy discuss we decided to have a walk around before going home. On the way to NOWHERE we had talked so many things then we decided to have some pictures of us. hahaha... the idea came from me... these are the photos:



After taking photo on this point, we walked back to the station and went back to HvA. The girls needed to do number one. Chit chat about the languages and many things, then we headed back home. huff...

This morning i have a college of the history of the art of the buildings.
200 minutes hearcollege, and the materials come from the fu*kin expensive book, Geschiedenis van de bouwkunst.

Ok. Gotta have some SLEEP NOW...

Welterusten!
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Tragedi bolos kelas secara TAK DISENGAJA
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 5:31 PM
Yaph. Hari ini bener2 MENYEBALKAN!

Gw uda bangun jam 6 pagi buat siap2 kelas pagi gw... kelas paling pagi jam setenga 9...
Hari ini dengan semangat menggebu2 gw pergi ke sekolah.. Sekitar jam 8.15 ato 8.20 gw uda berdiri di deket lokaal (ruang kelas) Disana uda ada Richardo Blackson, dan kemudian datang teman satu2nya cewe di kelas gw *kelas V* yang bernama Yasemin Barun. Jadilah kami berbincang2 sebelum guru dateng di luar kelas yang gelap dan kosong itu.

Lima menit pun berlalu. Richardo uda kesel aje dan bilang *dengan bahasa belanda tentunya*
"Ini mana gurunya? Seenaknya aja telat. Kita aja ga boleh telat mustinya dia kasi contoh yang baik dong? huff..."
Sepuluh menit pun berlalu... si Richardo uda kaya mencak2 ngoceh2 gitu. Gw ngerasa ada yang ga beres, tapi mencoba untuk tetap menunggu..

TAK TERASA angka di iPhone menunjukkan pukul 9.15am. Yak! Jelas sudah. hampir 1 jam plajaran berlalu dan kita ga ada ide sama sekali dimana tuh guru DAN anak2 grup V yang laen berada. Merasa ada yang ga beres kita ke ruang guru. Mati aja ternyata si guru2 sepelintir Meneer Sander van Veen ini ga tau dimana batang hidungnya. Bahkan apakah dia hadir ato ga mereka ga tau... WADOOH...

Terus ada dosen siapa gitu *lupa namanya tapi yang pasti cw* bilang bahwa kita coba buka email kita. sapa tau si dosennya ini ngirim email kalo dia ga bisa ngajar. Kita buka dan... tererereeeet... NIHIL!

Yauda lah.... jadilah tragedi ini. BOLOS KELAS SECARA TAK DISENGAJA...

Bete mutung dongkol kesel sebel bentol *loh?* banget gw! gila aja! uda cape2 bangun pagi2 buat ngikutin pelajarannya si Sander gevlek ini... ternyata dianya ga tau entah dimana. Padahal dia vakdocent loh! maksudnya guru fakultas arsitektur buat BAGIAN YANG PALING NYEDOT STUDIEPUNTEN (SKS) yaitu project kita. HADOOOH... gw berharap aja kalo dia tadi ga dateng. soalnya kalo dia dateng, berarti kita KETINGGALAN 2 jam mata pelajarannya dia. Tapi kalo dia ga dateng ya tenang deh gw...

haha...

Plajaran kedua itu visualisasi sketsa dan gambar tangan. pokoknya disuru gambar kubus yang ditumpuk gitu. terus yaa... gitu deh... gampang2 susa. sebenernya sih gampang buat gw. cuma hanya satu kendala gw. gw ga bisa gambar garis lurus kecuali ga napas. dan terlebih lagi ya. cuma boleh satu garis dan ga lebih. bisa2 aja sih lurus dan 1 garis. cuma masalah gw ituuu... gw ga bisa yang namanya gambar garis yang tipis2 banget!! SUSAH GILA!!

uda dulu deh.. gw mau bobo bentar dulu. baru sampe rumah nih dan abis beli macem2 buat sekolah. cuma hadoooh... mana susa nyarinye...
uda dulu deh. ntar lanjut lagi..
welterusten.
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FIRST COLLEGE!!
Monday, August 25, 2008 7:52 PM
one big word.. TIRED..

indeed...

the college began at 12.55 but i was there at 12.15. Yeah... those pretty much heavy books should be bought. I got three important books. they are :

  1. uit de hand, schets-vaardigheden in de bouwkundestudie (by Adriaan van Haaften) this was €13,80
  2. Ontwerp en analyse (by: Bernard Leupen, Christoph Grafe, Nicola Körnig, Marc Lampe, en Peter de Zeeuw) this was €26,50
  3. Geschiedenis van de bouwkunst (by: W.J. van Heuvel en Ir. B.D. Verbrugge) this WAS € 69,90
Yaph... i got some korting or discount because i'm a new student in HvA so i paid ONLY €105,37

After buying those fu**in heavy books, i went upstairs, and need to rent a locker for a year. It costs €15 per locker. What sucks was that we should 'chippen'(*) instead of 'pinnen'(**)
:...(
Yez, indeed. i had no saldo in the chipknip(*) account of my bank pass. I should have them uploaded to rent the locker. then i and Wan King Yi, a new friend of mine got the code of the locker. then we rushed to our VERY FIRST CLASS. and... jeng jeng jeng jeng...
UNFORTUNATELY the elevators had problems that we must go upSTAIRs to the 6th floor. where we have the first class. that was a FU**in D*mN tiring 'tour' to our class.

FIRST CLASS DISMISSED with a fact that we had to copy some NEW ASSIGNMENTS voor next week. I chose to make a glass house and luckily i got a smal japanesse glass house! hoho...

After copying the assignments,we went downstairs from level 0 to level -1 and went upstairs to a hidden workplace of architecture faculty in level 0, to have some drawing materials. LUCKILY we HAD TO CHIPPEN WITH BANK PASS. and my saldo wasnt enough to have all of the most materials. then we ran upstairs again and have my bankpass uploaded again then we ran down again.

The next 'mission' was to PUT ALL OF THIS THICK BOOKS IN OUR NEW LOCKER! hahaha...
We went happily to level 3 and put the things there and WENT DOWNSTAIRS to have the second class. THIS WAS SO NICE! We could able to know how to use the drawing table of the architects!! IT was such a NICE thing. especially for drawing things that needed accuracy and tidyness.

It was not a long class because from our class, only 3 people had the 'needed pencil to draw. then i went home with THOSE FUCK*N HEAVY BOOKS! I should have them covered by a laminating plastic wrap.

now its time to sleep. tomorrow i have a class at 8.30. hufff... tiring tiring tiring...
PS. tomorrow i'll go to amsterdam to buy some 'missing' things for my schools matters. and OF COURSE pick my lovely cross-processed-35mm-films up!! hoho

Welterusten allemaal... hoaaaah.... *yawning*
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The Outdoor Day in Maarssen
Sunday, August 24, 2008 12:54 PM
I arrived in Maarssen at 8.03am, and found a HvA student there. He was the boy whose jacket was green, that's why i could recognize him. We went to the bus stop, waited for other students who might come with another train. I took some pictures there with my holga and my lumix, yes, on that rainy day. They might think that i was a bit strange girl who walked around with a colorful-a-toy-like-camera. And moreover with a digicam too.

Anyway, I got on the bus then took a sit. Over 10 minutes we arrived at our destination and it seemed that we have to spend ourday in a 'made-by-human-beach' hahaha... We got into the 'outdoor inn' and had something to drink, coffee, tea, and cookies. Nice for me who hadn't had my breakfast. ahaha.

Speaking of which, after having our body filled with new 'energy' *from the cookies*, the group X, where i belong to, was merged with group W and we had to wear orange shirt as orange team. The good news is that I WAS NOT THE ONLY GIRL IN THE GROUP ANYMORE! hahahaha!!! finally there was another girl, a beautiful Moroccan girl called Dounia joined too!! hohoho!!

We played hard, worked hard that day! What a fun *hell* rainy day!
We had to compete other groups in different games. And all of those games included a BIG word. That's about BOUWEN or BUILDING. We had to build a raft, a tower and a catapult or slingshot. Every kind of game needed building skill. We gotta have a good teamwork to get everything done. and hell yeah. We did win 3 kind of games. The raft building, catapult building and volleyball game. Such nice work for the newcomers from HAVO or VWO or MBO.

I knew a little bit of this kind of teamwork, since i had experienced workin
g in a project group, whether it was just a small-and-only-language-group. We had to make such so-called colloquy before doing anything. It was much much better than directly did what was on everyone's mind. Everything was just like a pyramid right? But it's not a really big deal. We had just met each other. Lets just say, we didn't know anything before. One day we could know how to build a good teamwork, right??

Now. It's done when it was hardly raining and every games were called off by the docents. It seemed to be a pretty-dangerous if we keeped doing those games, especially the canoo game. We gotta row the canoo to a red ball in the middle of the lake and... IT WAS CRAZY TO DO IN A RAINY THUNDERY DAY! I was so happy no matter what when it was called off... fiuh~ *you may want to see how dangerous canooing on this lake*

That day i got 22 names and their emails and some of their mobile number. A quite nice approach huh? haahaha...


Yeah. I dont know what exactly are they thinking bout me. A strange-childish-foreign-student who always go with 2 cameras with her? How's my life going to be in the next 4 years? Only God knows. I just lay all of my life in His mighty hand.

gotta sleep rite now because tomorrow i gotta get up early.

Welterusten allemaal!!
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22 august 2008 - morning tragedy
10:44 AM
Morning had come. I woke up at 5 am, and had my back packed. Ready to go and I change my 35mm roll film with a new one, the first of my ‘special 35mm film’ from lomography.com. YAY!! since the iso was only 100, i just hoped that today wouldnt be a rainy day (fyi, i always hate rainy days). And shit happened. It was a rainy day.

At 6.55am i went downstairs, and rushed telling my uncle and my aunt that i was ready to go.
They seemed to be aghast and asked where i headed to, and was i going to school. And i said honestly that i was going to Maarssen with all of my new friends from architecture faculty. Suddenly they said :"No, you MUSN'T go there!"
I asked : "Why?"
My uncle : "Do you know how far Maarssen is? It is almost Utrecht!"
I replied : "Yeah. I knew that. we're going there together, why cant i go? i aint alone there"
My uncle : "You dont have to join that kind an unnessesary event! You have already got a school and you dont have to go there to find another school! That's for people who want to study there, you know?!"
I replied : "Nope! i go there not to find another school or go with people who want to find a school or study there. I go with the whole frist year students of architecture faculty and the docents are going too." (i couldnt stand anymore. this missunderstanding was putting me on the cliff)
My uncle : "Whatever! Go if you wanna go!" with anger and then went to his office.

I asked my aunt if i could go *and also asked about her opinion*. She just said that she doesnt know. She seemed agree with my uncle. She went upstairs, maybe took a bath and i couldn't do anything but call my parents.

I'd told them a day before that i wanted to go there but i just couldnt tell my uncle because of that 'freaky scary night'. Told them the situation and the time rushed. it was already 7.10 and the train departed on 7.30. My mom told me that she wanted to talk to my aunt. Unfortunately she was taking a bath. I just couldnt think anymore that i went anyway, was running along the street till suddenly i realized, "Mijn pasje!" or my bank pass! I couldnt be able to buy the tickets if i didn't bring my pass along with me.

I ran back home and i saw my aunty talking on the phone. It was probably my mom. I went upstairs, took my bank pass, then went back downstairs. She seemed to try to act like she didnt know anything, and she was just afraid doing anything that could make her husband upset. She suggested my mom to call my uncle and passed the phone to me. My mom asked the mobile number of my uncle and i gave her on the way running to Diemen Zuid Station. It was 7.23 already, and i had to buy the ticket first on a machine that almost had never been used by me. My iphone showed some numbers : 7.29.

Luckily i could still take the 7.30am train. I went on the train then prayed. "God, am i doing sth wrong? Can't i just enjoy my finally-got-new-life at my new school? Can't i just join the outdoor day with all of my friends? CANT I JUST HAVE ONE DAY VACATION BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS? Can't I? Why can't they trust me to take a long trip to Maarssen? I ain't a baby anymore, even I always do sth childish or silly. I AM 18 and GOING ON 19!!! Why should i BE TREATED as a new-born-baby??"

My heart hurt so bad... It hurt so bad that i cried along the way to Amsterdam RAI, a place where i should change train. On that sprinter train i tried to calm myself then decided to read a religious book given by my mom, Pribadi Tangguh. It was the constellation of the sermons of Pdt. Yuyung Nehemia, my priest in Indonesia. It made me stronger at least that i cried no more.
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Rewind to 21 augustus 2008
2:34 AM
Rewind to 21 augustus 2008
First day’s school – Introduction Day –



One day one day before this day I made an appointment with Ali to go to the introduction day together, since we had known that we were about going to study architecture in HvA. I had to register in Student Service Center to give all of the needed documents such as my high school and junior high school diplomas with its translation, copy of my passport and residence permit and other documents. The Introduction began at 10.00am but I was there 45 minutes earlier to register first.

I went downstairs, headed to the schools canteen where all of the bouwkunde students (build environment students) waited till 10.00am. The time had come and we gotta stand in a long crowded rows to absence ourselves. My name wasn’t listed there because I had just registered all of the documents 45 minutes ago. Yeah… that enrollment form was ignored by me because I thought I couldn’t enroll the architecture of HvA anymore till Cindy Groen had called me one day before this introduction day.

On that desk i was asked whether if i would join the outdoor day in Maarsen, and i just replied her, "Yes", then i paid some money for tomorrow's event. It wasnt obliges, but i just wanted to join!! It sounded fun and by joining that outdoorday it seems that i could be able to know other friends. Since i knew that i'm just a foreigner and my dutch language was not as good as those who had already lived here for more than 1 year or years, i should take this chance to let them see that i could exist too in this tough world.

There were some presentations done by the docents of architecture faculty. When I paid attention to the presentations, I knew and I felt that this is my path I’m walking. This is the right way I’m choosing.

Even other says : “Women can’t be success in this field”

Or something like : “You wouldn’t earn much money by being an architect, because no one would take woman as their architect, it’s men’s job”

Or even : “You are about to be underestimated by people, because you’re NOT working as the DIRECTEUR of a BANK”

I would prefer to say : “I don’t care if I don’t get much money or being underestimated by people or this job belongs to men. I just do what I want to do and I just do what I interested to. I wouldn’t study what I don’t like such as ECONOMY, ACCOUNTANCY or something like that. I love drawing, I love painting, I love drawing houses and be able to design it by myself. I love seeing my parents happy because I’m also happy studying what I love. Just say, even if I HAD to study economy, or something belongs to social economy fields, even if I WAS ABLE to get HIGH SCORES on that subjects and for sure I am able to get it, even if I could earn tons of money by doing such works, and still I FEEL that I’m not happy doing these things, I would rather die.”

After the long and fast presentations of the docents, we had a lunch break. I ate my broodje ham met kaas with my chocomel. And got an apple from Edwin, another Indonesian man from TSOC HvA (a dutch course that I attended too) who joined the introduction day too. Then we had to have some presentation again before we got a round trip around the campus. It seemed pretty interesting with some illustration and games about ‘think out of the box’. Then we had to take a trip around the HvA.
It was a quite nice trip except the long waiting of the groups that had to be decided first by the docents or committee. And you know what? I was the only girl in my group. We walked around the building, another group was joining the same trip, and of the two groups, I was still the only girl. (TT.TT)

The last stop was the LAX, a lounge bar of the students belongs to ASVL (Aviation Studenten Vereiniging Leeuwenburg). I didn’t drink beer, so I drank apple juice, then go back home. And got my uncle saying ‘unreasonable’ things while he was cooking. I couldn’t bear hearing what he had just said and kept my mouth shut. *I knew he might have some trouble so I just let him say what he wanted to say*
At the dinner, something had happened that had made my uncle so mad. I couldn’t even say what I had to say that night. I had to tell him that I wanted to join tomorrow’s outdoor day in Maarssen (and that I had paid €20 for it). But on that ‘freaky scary’ condition, I couldn’t say a thing.
Then I kept my mouth shut till the morning had come.
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with tears
Saturday, August 23, 2008 9:37 PM
22th august 2008-08-22 9.39pm

My eyes hurt because of crying.
My heart hurts more… more than I’ve ever felt
I’m writing this in my room on MS Word, hearing some music outside my space.
I ain’t hear anything but the typing sounds that i make.
I can’t stop shedding my tears. I am not be able to do such simple thing.
It keeps going out of my eyes.

My heart hurts so bad that I can’t think, I can’t move, and I can’t even breath.
It hurts as an arrow tore my chest.
Couldn’t do anything. Don’t dare to defense myself.
Just can see how the arrow rudely keeped tearing my flesh, tried to get itself closer to my heart.
It’s so close that I couldn’t bear no more.
I couldn’t even put some shield to cover myself.
I don’t dare I don’t dare.

Just wish to be able to be gone.
Run from every single thing that has bound me this past months.
I don’t even get how someone could be a totally mean one.

When I finally got what I’m chasing after,
When I finally could have known how we should work hard
When I finally could have the courage to face everything before me
When I finally could have known how we should work hard
When I finally HAVE the guts…
When I finally could have enrolled…
The mean one man seems doesn’t have some respect
Or he just don’t like to see that I could just have had what I’m desiring?
God… show me your way…
I cant bear this pain.
Just can’t imagine what would have come.
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First day of school, the introduction day!!
Thursday, August 21, 2008 12:29 AM
YEAH!

Yesterday afternoon Cindy Groen, the dean of architecture faculty of Hogeschool van Amsterdam (further i'll write it as HvA)called me and told me that I could enroll the architecture faculty of HvA. YAY!!! YAY!!! YAY!!! XD SO EXCITED!!!

Haha. I just have to bring the copy of my diploma and the translations, and the copy of my passport and residence permit or it's called 'verblifsvergunning' in Dutch (further i'll write this as VV). And where should i bring it to and when?

TODAY!

Today is the first day of the whole new year whole new school. These two last-weekdays-of-this-weekend are the time to introduce everything about the campus and the faculty. Today i would be introduced as newcomers of Architecture Faculty HvA.

Today we have to go around the campus, activate our account in HvA base intranet (i've used to this kinda things because i've got an account when i was in Taal-en Schakelonderwijscentrum of HvA), and further there will be a briefing for tomorrow's event.

Tomorrow we got an outdoor-day. I cant predict what we are gonna exactly do tommorow. What i know so far is that tomorrow we're heading to Maarssen. Quite far from Amsterdam i guess. Because we gotta take a trip with the train. It was almost Utrecht and probably approximately 20 minute to get there. As we can see on the map.


I guess we are going to farms-area. Just like the Intro camp on the past 13-15 August and i didnt partucipate the event!! ah!! It's such a good chance to know all of your friends and it must be so 'gezellig'! But it's okay... there's always time to know each other right? I wouldnt become "down" just because i am still a 'stranger' tomorrow.

Just like a proverbs of someone (i dont know who's quoted this),
Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery and today is a gift.
SO, lets enjoy today, work hard and play hard today, forget the 'past' and face the future with smile and flush! OK? Let's go to bed now. Tomorrow i'll be posting something new from one brand new life... hoho... :)

welterusten allemaal....
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gotta sleep on a half bed
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 1:09 AM
I sat on my bed and glanced at this messy bed.



  1. The copies of my Senior High and Junior High School diplomas
  2. The originals and copies of the translation of the diplomas into English that i've just got yesterday
  3. An application form to a Dutch school in Netherlands
  4. My lovely green binder note, a place to write every Dutch words that i dont know.
  5. My was-spilled-by-chocomel-agenda :...(
  6. My lomo notebook
  7. My Kamus Praktis, a Dutch-Indonesian Indonesian-Dutch dictionary
  8. A for-12+children-book Donkere Ogen by Bettie Elias
  9. A Gouden Woonboek 2000 of Claire
  10. An open "Nederlands voor basisvorming Op niveau plus 4 VMBO kaderberoeps basisboek" that i've just got from Claire, the girlfriend of my nephew
  11. My pencilcase
  12. My Syllabus (NT2 en studievaardigheden)
  13. My Data Traveler with a bonus card for Albert Heijn supermarket were chained on my billabong keychain
  14. Two pieces of papers and my pencil and a pen.

What a messy bed -_-"

Well, i think tonight i'm gonna sleep on just a half bed, since the other half was seized by those circa 14 things.

I got a headache by reading the stuff number 10. Now i cant even think what i was going to write. I wanted to write something but i've just just just forgot it! Arrgh... anyway... i just wanna sleep... gotta close my eyes and think about the cotton candy in de Kermis. i'm just wishing i could eat a totally big cotton candy right now.

it's now 2.25 and tomorrow i gotta call someone important. i decide not to take a risk of 'typing something-nonsense in my blog' just like yesterday's incidence


welterusten allemaal, have a nice sleep everyone
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a BAD ENGLISH of a sleep-blog-typer -__-
Sunday, August 17, 2008 10:55 PM
OH MY GOD!!
I did it again!!

On my previous post i have written:
"Ok now i´m getting sleepy, and it´s not good if i keep typing when i feel sleepy. Because i have a strange-stupid-disease. I couldnt say that this a disease, but i f i fell on sleeping, No matter what i could write some ´nonsense´things on my laptop even my eyes are closed (i´m sleeping). It happens a lot, especially when we a fight against the grim reaper had. I should have just stop Soul and Maka, but i just couldnt do that.

I think i gotta sleep now. lets see tommorow if i have made some mistyping or something.
`welterusten allemaal´"

Oh my my... HOW COULD IT BE?? I couldnt even remember what i was writting and when i checked my previous post, a big-d**n-stupid-mistyping appeared. Jeng jeng... My eyes wide open reading the things that i've written this MORNING... no waay... hikhik... T~T it was mortifying that i've just done a stupid-bad-english.

Even i couldn't write the proper english grammar there (on the grey-coloured-phrase) Even i wrote it with a Dutch grammar which all the verbs are placed as the last word of a clause.

And those sentences were talking about an must-see-anime that i've just watched, SOUL EATER. It is a pretty good anime to be seen. Click here to read the synopsis.

You'd never bored to watch it, because beside the plot is fairly understandable, the graphic is 'delicious' enough to be enjoyed. Moreover this anime is focused on the main characters *you'll know what i mean once you have seen an episode*. The draw-style is also so simple and 'cute' enough that we could watch with no stress. You'd surely laugh everytime the 'fals-instrument-of-recorder-soundtrack' is played. I don't really sure what could make me laugh. But i think it is caused by the instrument itself. It was a so-not-good-deliberately-played-instrument... hahaha

My rate is 9/10 for this anime. I recommend you guys to watch this at your leasure time! ^^

Okay. Gotta confess that it's now 0.15am on monday. I was planning to finish up writting this post before 0.00am but my parents has just called me for more than 45 minutes. -__-" *talking about many things that happen in Indonesia and here, in the Netherlands.

Speaking of which, im gonna watch full metal panic in timo's room.
Plus, i feel sorry for The Netherlands soccer team who are heading home from Beijing. >,<

Oke iedereen... welterusten... slaap lekker...
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5.05 am
4:55 AM
It´s now 4.55 am and my eyes still fresh. I should have gone to sleep.

But i just wanna write what was i doing between 2.00-now.
I´ve just found a not-new-but-quite-interesting-site. It is DEVIANTART!!! wkwkwkwk... at first when a friend of mine suggest that i should be a part of DA, i thought, what is this use for? I dont have so many fine-well-done-arts that i could be proud of in that site. My arts (or lets say my previous arts) stayed in Indonesia. And how can i just upload things to DA?

I surfed that site and found out that it was kinda su*s. The menus are not clear enough to be understand. And it was ended with uploading some look-great-photos of me in Amsterdam Arena, Dreamland Bali, and one mobile-editted photo. I was kind a sure that no one would like my first postings.

Since i discovered a brand-new-camera-with-old-technologies, HOLGA, my life´s change.
I become so passionate with this analogue-plastic-toy-camera. When i got the result of my first-35mm-roll-film, i was kinda surprise. The results were not making me down because i´m a really newbie in this field.

Since then i have got a good idea! Why dont i upload those results on DA? People could see my works and i could probably get some useful feedbacks over my lomography skill.
Then i upload some of the-best-shots that i´ve done. Follow the link on more of gretta on : deviantart. Feel free to come by and leave some comments.

Ok now i´m getting sleepy, and it´s not good if i keep typing when i feel sleepy. Because i have a strange-stupid-disease. I couldnt say that this a disease, but i f i fell on sleeping, No matter what i could write some ´nonsense´things on my laptop even my eyes are closed (i´m sleeping). It happens a lot, especially when we a fight against the grim reaper had. I should have just stop Soul and Maka, but i just couldnt do that.

I think i gotta sleep now. lets see tommorow if i have made some mistyping or something.
`welterusten allemaal´
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Blog number one
Saturday, August 16, 2008 3:09 PM
Japh.

That's right. This one is my first blog in Blogger.com. I've never had a thought that i might make something like this. Because i thought i dont really concern of maintaining a blog. But, everything's is worth to try. We would never know the results, but, if we dont even try once, we would never harvest things.

Okay. Today's topic is...
Why did i choose the words "Welterusten allemaal" for my Blogname?

The very first thing that i've ever thought since i had to own a blogname was "welterusten allemaal" which means have a good rest, everyone. It is a dutch phrase which quite popular to be spoken when it is a bed time. The question is Why did i choose that one?

The answer is, i 'm not sure bout it. haha... i just think that i'd like to blog in the middle of the night when i have already said "welterusten allemaal" to my family here in the Netherlands.
It's just as simple as that, and problem's solved.

Further about the designs of the blogpage itself, i still dont know what to do. Lets think about it soon. I gotta take a bath, then continue with studying. One month and 1 day to go before the most important exam in my life!!

*fyi. now it's 15.26 and even so, i would say, "welterusten allemaal"
especially for those who are in my homeland, Indonesia coz it's now 20.26 in Indonesia... ^^

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